My Ambivalence About COMMISSIONS

Technically I'm not open for commission work as I write this, but YES, I have done commission work before. Still, I can't be the only artist who isn't raring to go on commission work.  Since I've been asked about commissions again recently, I've been thinking about it a LOT. Naturally, I began focusing on the WHY behind my feelings. It's true. I'm not only curious but I think waaaaaaaay too much.

Could it be because I don't like being told what to do? Hmmmm. Maybe. Although, it's probably also true that most people that have been on the planet as long I have don't like being told what to do either. Who LIKES that? Aside from those in the sub/dom kink world, I don't know. Perhaps there are service industry jobs that require it, but I've never worked there. It's fine if I'm asking for assistance, advice or help. Otherwise it makes me feel like a kid.

Could it be the pressure of my own expectations? There is always THAT. And yes, I can see where that is a definite impediment of my own. My wanting to "get things right" includes worrying about meeting the clients expectations. Clients need to see progress in a commissioned project and are allowed to make a certain number of corrections as you go along. It can be frustrating. It's pressure. And, I'm hard enough on myself as it is. So... I suppose it's fair to say that it's mostly the pressure I apparently want to avoid. So I am.

I'm fine with NOT doing commissions now. Will I change my mind? Will I ever do commissions again? The truth is, I don't know! On my commission page it says commissions are closed. BUT it also says on the contact form that you can fill out: "Wanna try and change my mind? Please describe the type of commission you are interested in:"

Here's the TRUTH: While I don't know IF or WHEN I may change my mind regarding commissions... I'm actually opening up a space for YOU to change my mind!

Aren't people complicated?